In a world that don’t know Romeo & Juliet.

School’s almost out, Which i am completely stoked for.
I just want to graduate!  ..even though i have to come back for one more semester.
That sucks so bad. but hey, atleast it won’t be for the whole year.
I’ll just be a semester behind everyone else in my class in the college world.
No big deal. ..i just hope my principal will still let me walk with my class.

I was listening to Bon Jovi this morning on the way to school, and i have “I’d die for
you” stuck in my head. But i don’t have any Jovi on my psp. :[ what am i to do?

ON A LIGHTER NOTE:
D&D this saturday! i'm excited. :p
My Deva is a level 4 now. which is greatt. I'm excited for our new scenario we have
planned by our lovely DM since we just finished our first scenario last weekend. :]

To Walk the Night.

Seeing you Friday was amazing.
Especially slipping into your room while you were sleeping
and laying beside you & how long it took you to notice that i was there.
I wish i had a picture of the look on your face when you opened your eyes.

I hugged you so hard i didn’t want to let you go.
I still don’t ever want to let you go.

i love you.

Just got Lucky.

Day 4. out of 4.

you’ll be home tomorrow and i can’t fucking wait!
I’ve missed you so much & the idea of being able to hold you
and kiss you as much as i want is just like heaven.

i can’t wait, cap’n.
i just can’t wait.

i love you so much.

Unchain the Night.

Day 3. out of 4.

I’m so stoked for you to come home.
And tomorrow’s the last day i have to spend without you.
You get back Friday mornin’ around 6.
i couldn’t be more excited!

Senior Project Panels were today
and i DOMINATED that presentation AND my project.
I made a 90 on my panel. and a 95 over all.

Hellyesssss!

i wish you were here to help me celebrate.
but just one more day, love. 

gah, i can’t wait.

i love you so so much.
and i miss you something fierce. <3

Forever.

Day 2. out of 4.
and i feel sick.

I don’t think it’s because you’re away so much as i know how far away you are
and i can’t talk to you as much as i’d like and i can’t get and send you pictures
because my dad’s phone is turned off and i don’t have my own anymore.

I have to do my senior project presentation tomorrow at 12:20pm.
and i couldn’t be more nervous.  I wish you were here, i know you’d make me feel better.
but Friday’s only 2 days away.

i just need to get past tomorrow.
i’m dreading tomorrow. i almost wish it would never come.
but to get to you, i know it has to pass.

i’ll deal with it.
and i’ll live.

i miss you so much.
and love you so much more.

Miles Away.

So, this is Day 1 without you and i already miss you something fierce.
But i think I can survive 3 more days. just 3 more days.

i can’t wait til Friday.
because i’m going to plant a million kisses on you & hug you til your eyes pop.

I’m glad you’re sending me pictures..
you’re so gorgeous.

..now i just have to get you to send me n00dz.

i love you so much, cap’n.

Radio Sweetheart.

Prom was last night, and i remember a while back ago i was
like “That’s lame. i’m not going to my senior prom.”
but i couldn’t be happier that i went with you.
it actually was fun. i had an amazing time.
I’m surprised you liked it as much as you said you did.

Despite how awkward i’m sure we looked dancing,
that meant alot to me. I felt so close to you.
and at that time, i couldn’t see anyone else in that room but you.

before we went out for dinner, i was like “shit, this will be awkward because
tons of people will be there looking at us like we’re dumb.” but it wasn’t awkward one bit
because we sat outside with the pretty lights, just the two of us.
It was beautiful.

And i’m so glad i stayed the night with you.
As gay as i suppose it is, last night was beautiful.
Absolutely perfect.
i couldn’t have asked for anything more.

And waking up in your arms is the best thing in the world.
You always wake up before me. :p

And today you left.
for 4 days i won’t see you because you’ll be in florida.
I already miss you and it’s only been a few hours.
and i’m still crying just as hard as i was when i got out of your car.
i wish they made words to describe what you mean to me.
I’m fully convinced that i’m the luckiest girl in the world.

i can’t wait til you come home, army husband. :p
i love you so much x infinity plus 1, no overdues.
i win.

Surrender.

9 months

I find myself loving you more and more each day.
I didn’t think that was possible.

j:   “I don’t know how you’re still with me. All i do is complain and bitch.
sorry i suck. I’m just glad you haven’t realized that you deserve better yet..”

b: “Don’t you ever say i deserve better, you are better than anything i
could ever dream about, i love you. you are perfect.”

j:  “Ben, if i was perfect i wouldn’t have these pissy mood swings, i wouldn’t
be a little upset that you’ll be gone when i feel like i need you most.
I wouldn’t be that selfish about it. I wouldn’t act how i do sometimes. You
deserve so much more than i could ever give you. I’ve just been hoping that
loving you with all my heart, more than anyone else ever could and being there
for you when you need it is enough to keep you with me for as close to
forever as i can get.”

b: “It’s more than enough. Now just go to sleep and i’m sure you will be better
tomorrow. I love you and you are perfect to me “

even after its my fault i get in bad moods sometimes,
he’s still there and loves me just the same.
Example of perfection.  & he’s mine. <3

Riot in the Dungeon.

8 months
i guess most people would see Friday the 13th as unlucky
and that something bad is bound to happen.

not in my case though, i have the most wonderful day
with the most wonderful boyfriend. :]

Into the Fire.

It’s not that i don’t trust you,
(because i do, with all my heart)
It’s just that i worry too much for my own good..

i think it’s  because i’m used to getting shit on and i don’t want someone coming up behind me
and snatching up the one thing in my life that’s ever gone right
& is continuing to go right for once.
The best thing that ever happened to me was you
and i don’t ever want anything to happen to that.
it’d be fucking retarded if it did.

i love you so much.